I tried to die young

©Melanie Safka Schekeryk 2003

I tried to die young, really I tried,

but the voice deep inside would not let me succumb,

I laugh at the things that I’ve done,

but I tried to die young.

I took a plane through the dawn,

Threw myself on the tracks,

but the train didn’t come,

and I had to walk back,

I jumped into the whirlpool,

Thought I get sucked in

and I just kept spinning around

‘til I learned to swim.

I tried to die young, really I tried,

what did I try,

but the voice deep inside would not let me succumb,

I laugh at the things that I’ve done,

but I tried to die young.

My heart kept on breaking,

and the crack sought the edge

where the hand of a shadow

grabbed the hand in my head.

There where demons, I know them

they still come by,

but we’ve become friends,

my demons and I

I tried to die young, really I tried,

but the voice deep inside would not let me succumb,

I laugh at the things that I’ve done,

when I tried to die young.

I took a razor to the wrist of reality,

hell burned to my way taught futility.

I got a reason that it won’t go on forever,

but a reason to the heart

is a message undelivered

O, I tried to young

Now I ‘m the old girl,

I never thought I’d become

does it get any better

asks the little girl in my song.

I’m still learning the answers

So I make up things, you see,

she laughs: You’re still the same

and you never kill me.

I tried to die young, really I tried,

but the voice deep inside would not let me succumb,

I laugh at the things that I’ve done.

I laugh at the things that I’ve done.

I laugh at the things that I’ve done,

when I tried to die young.

really I tried

I tried to die young